Holiday

There is some heartbreak on the happiest days
for people who are gone
who loved us and who we love still
and for the lovers
that love passed by
There is some heartbreak in the very best of days
getting up early or staying up late,
walking the streets of
waking houses with the lights coming on
and you can almost hear the oohs and aahs
and you forget, you forget
that you're on the outside
pretending that you aren't looking in


There is some heartbreak on the happiest days
for people we never got to know
but we hear in the back of our mind
a whisper that we should know them
or should remember,
should remember people in a war zone
that isn't their in-law's house
people like us bringing down
memories from the top of the closet
and there are never as many
memories as you thought there were
never as many memories as you wanted


There is some heartbreak on the happiest days
a sweet secret of a heartbreak that we share
a sweet secret of a heartbreak for someone we love
and that secret makes us smile
for someone who's not there


~XineAnn